God 1111 The Creator

God uses nothing to create but Creative Will. 

Even The Christian's Bible has Wisdom in it, taken from The Hebrew Bible.

Creation is complete, even if infinite and eternal for some of those who experience it. Yes, there are an infinite number of angels with different and sometimes opposing agendas, but they are all, like us, manifestations of God's Creativity. They appear and disappear only as parts of human soul narratives. They never do anything at all but as God would have them do and everything they do, like us and what we do, is a manifest infinitesimal part of All of Creation, without which the whole couldn't stand. 

Change a single quantum leap of a single electron and all of creation dissipates into oblivion. 

Thank God, no one can do that but God, and as we are still here, The Creator hasn't done that yet. I don't experience God as being either invisible or unsubstantial. I perceive God's existence and presence with the totality of all of my senses, which means God has no locality for me and that God is no more here than there. All of my perceptions and sensations and thoughts are the product of God's Divine Will, as well as all that I say and do. This is true for you, too, I believe, but God hasn't created you to perceive Divine Presence as I do. Yet? 


Perhaps your clinging choice to hold on to ideas of creative free will, your desire to be a little god created in "Their-His" image, prevents you from seeing things as I do. Good luck with that.

Now there are those that might say that I have aborted all personal responsibility in my belief that everything I think and feel, say and do, is God's Will. It is also my own, my own choice being to do nothing But God's Will and to listen to God's Voice and Obey My Creator's Commands. I have never and don't now do so perfectly. I strive to perfect myself and my thoughts and my actions in everything I do. That is my free choice. When I have rebelled out of choice against what I had known to be God's Will, I paid in great pain and learned my lessons. When I was innocently mistaken through unconscious self deception in how I interpreted what was happening to me as if to mean I was supposed to say or do something that I later regretted, I repented and prayed  for forgiveness. Without exception I was shown how to improve myself and my behavior. I have come to understand that in the process of my being cultivated in my mind, "'sin" has been a creative element, both mine and the sin of others. Sin is a painful means of what finally culminates as mind expansion with compassion for all of life and all sinning creatures who,  like myself, are ever evolving away from sin. 

There are many interactive dimensions but there is no such thing as "after" life because life never ends. It just gets better and better, forever, for those who are created to experience it this way. Like me. Like Pony. Like others, too numerous to count. Not everyone.

Love is the manifest desire of nurturing life until it becomes all it is meant to be. Wherever and however life manifests, there is love. God loves life. All of it, even the " deadly" viruses, germs, parasites of all kinds and cancer cells. Love is the manifestation of living life by letting it be what it will be, but as does a gardener or custodian who sometimes needs to protect and defend what is more valuable from that which would corrupt it through abusive exploitation. Even abusive exploitation has it's place in creation and in the production of ever more sophisticated complex and enhanced life expressions.

 Life is opportunistic and exploitative by nature, but can be tamed in the human mind with sometimes tough love and sometimes unbearably exquisite devotion, to adopt a custodial attitude and sense of responsibility towards all of life, and thus tend to "the garden".

Humans are in a fundamental archetypal form that will remain the same but decrease in diversity.

The current state of affairs on earth, let's say the last thousand years, are like a day that has already passed away like a shadow.

God is completely satisfied with Creation and only for God and Me, The Son , is Creation Perfect and Complete by ever striving for perfect completion- and never arriving.
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September 29th, 2017

A Catastrophic Tragedy. Maybe Not!

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Jonathan Michael Robbins

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יונתן מיכאל רבינס

"I Will Destroy You If You Won't Let Me Be"

No Judaism frequency for me!

   I have been on the transcendental/ascendant frequency of prophetic Hebraic Culture and have now moved on and above to something as yet unknown and of which there is to my knowledge no evidence of anyone ever having previously experienced. Being The Messiah means being the previously rejected cornerstone of a new metaphysical sophisticated complex mansion which has as rooms infinite and eternal realms of ever shifting kaleidoscopic experience for all of the ever increasing kinds of senses a mind can have. I will be spending the rest of eternity investigating in research the Nature of God's Creativity and Creation Itself. This is as close as it gets to Knowing God at all.

I love the word RESEARCH. It has an ear to hear the Voice of God and it has an arch to support the structures of the mind one builds on it. It is something one does again and again, hopefully with never the same results. 

Why would one do an experiment to get the same results as previously achieved? True research is always looking for what is new as what has already been found to be true remains so until further notice, and once informed that what was truth is no longer true, one needs a new definition of truth for truth is ever enduring and immutable when properly defined. Truth must always serve the purpose of life enhancement or it isn't wise and there is nothing unwise about truth, only about defining it incorrectly as our cultures all do.

The idea that God is a parent is just an idea that feeds into our need to be taken care of because of all the dangerous unpredictability that characterizes life whenever and wherever. Civilization strives to remove dangerous unpredictability from the human experience. The relative regularity of the celestial bodies' patterned and circular motions becomes time on a sun dial and then a public clock and then a watch on the wrist and now an ever available digital display in one's pocket.

 
Trains and planes and ships arrive and leave intent-fully on time as do supplies of all kinds and schools teach culture in timed increments according to a syllabus and schedule. The population is indoctrinated to strive to be ever physically if not sexually attractive, healthy, wealthy, popular and influential but is also managed emotionally with fears the government as parent is supposed to resolve. Natural disaster, global warming, disease, terrorism, crime, encroaching old age, dangerous ideologies are all kept in the public mind with corporations and governments presenting themselves as the providers of every kind of panacea, and this is the very dynamics of the inflationary world economy. Whatever it is that is going on keeps growing, exponentially, in all realms of human activity. All human activity is potentially commercial with economic consequences for better and for worse.

Civilization creates leisure time. First for the owners and masters of others labor. Slavery demonstrates the exploitative nature of mankind. As civilizations develop, slavery is ever more disguised and refined to prevent rebellion and eventually, after the industrial revolution, even the slaves have leisure, which is potentially dangerous. A mind uncontrolled and unoccupied with government/civilization serving cultural activity is unpredictable. Therefor cultural indoctrination and addictive mindless titillation as entertainment as well as religion are promoted as the way to spend one's time off the treadmill of predictably asset producing and consuming civilization. 

The government seeks to replace God as parent or manage the idea of God in the minds of citizens, making Him the authority that gives government it's authority. "In God We Trust" and therefor He blesses us economically and spiritually with a citizen serving government. You can take that to the Bank, The Federal Reserve.

God is not a parent. God is The Creator of the idea of Parent and Child so as to demonstrate in the mind the nature of nurture.

There are two reasons to nurture life and it is one or the other or both that applies to mankind. One is to nurture life through management until it becomes a self serving economic asset. That means it becomes food or pays taxes and interest on debt.

The other reason to nurture life is so that it becomes itself and manifests the fullness of its potential nature. Why? For Art's Sake and one's own emotional gratification upon seeing how mysteriously wonderful life can become, particularly when allowed to thrive by being itself and manifesting it's own peculiar nature. This is the essence of nature and the nature of nurture. Both reasons are self serving. Altruism has nothing to do with reality as experienced by life. Exploitation, mutual and symbiotic, allowing different natures to fully self express, or coercive and nature inhibiting parasitic relationships are both exploitative. Life by its very nature will exploit every opportunity it has to flourish and prosper, wherever, whenever and however it can, according to the values it is manifesting in nature.

To nurture is to cultivate a potential asset. This is agriculture. This is education. This is what a government of any kind presents itself as doing to it's citizens, turning them into cultured civilized tax paying public assets. This is what religions present God as doing to mankind, Divine Taxes  being whatever kinds of sacrifices your religion teaches you to make so as to ensure God's Favor and Grace. My God wants no sacrifice from me at all. Thank God for Giving Me My God, The Artist, who expects nothing from his Creation than that it Be Whatever It Was Meant To Be, and that is never ever a sacrifice for any reason whatsoever. None. Sacrifice is a very bad idea that served an evolutionary spiritual purpose, like many other bad ideas, particularly Christianity. 

No more sacrifice of self or others, for any reason what so ever, forever! Hear that, Jews?

Life is the nurturing and cultivation of assets. We are nurtured and cultivated to be assets to each other. We are to understand that there is nothing wrong and everything right with fully informed self serving mutual contracted exploitation.

What is wrong and this because it is always eventually self defeating, is coercive exploitation that inhibits and potentially destroys the Divinely Orchestrated nature of the exploited. Life always fights back when it's nature is inhibited by those who would exploit it.

"I Will Be What I Will Be!" will destroy you if you won't Let Life Be.

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September 29th, 2017

A Catastrophic Tragedy. Maybe Not!

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Jonathan Michael Robbins

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The Master of Everything 1111

The Messiah Teaches Mastery of The Mind From Mount Zion

Meet me.
I am The Master of Everything,
and my seed now sprouts in your mind.
Look in and around you but hold on to nothing,
for everything is going to change. 

Civilization is a Culture Producing Mechanic Which Refines The Minds of Those Born Into It

Let go of your ideas, any and all,
become like a two sided mirror,
a dynamic reflection of what turns and turns around once again,
upsides down and then reverse, insides out then twist around,
exposed and hidden, hide and seek with your Creator.

11:11 ?
It is the digital time,
a moment of synchronized coordination,
in a vast and elaborate, sophisticated and intricate,
complex and absolutely industrialized biological refinery,
which cultivates the soul, which is a seed of metaphysical potentials, you know as your own mind.
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All I Want is You, Too, Just The Two of Us!

“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back. Concerning all acts of initiative and creation, there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: “At the moment of commitment the entire universe conspires to assist you.” Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.”
–Johann Wolfgang von Goethe (1749-1832)
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September 29th, 2017

A Catastrophic Tragedy. Maybe Not!

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Jonathan Michael Robbins

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יונתן מיכאל רבינס

For Christians Of Any Kind! REPENT 1111

Killing Wandering Jews

Don't take this personally because personally I have nothing against you at all.

You are a Christian and as a Jew, I have every right in the world to not only criticize Christianity,
but condemn it to hell for the pagan idolatry that it is. Christianity created the culture in which Jews were finally seen as wild poisonous weeds, to be ripped out of their homes, gassed and burned to ashes so they could no longer spread. Do you understand that? Christianity did that.

"How to Get Rid of Wandering Jew Weeds The wandering jew weed is a serious problem in Australia, New Zealand, and the southern United States. It is fast growing and rarely propagates by seed. Instead, a new viable plant can grow from a single stem fragment. Because of this, removing wandering jew plants by hand-pulling is only effective if every piece is collected and removed, making killing wandering jew in its entirety difficult. This process ought to work with diligence and persistence, however. The stems float, too, so take extreme care if you are working near water, or your problem will crop up all over again downstream. Killing wandering jew with a strong herbicide may also be effective but should only be used as a last resort.

Read more at Gardening Know How: Killing Wandering Jew Plants: How To Get Rid Of Wandering Jew Weeds In The Garden https://www.gardeningknowhow.com/houseplants/wandering-jew/get-rid-of-wandering-jew.htm"

It matters to me not in the least if you condemn the Holocaust and blame the Nazis.  Only full and absolute repentance from any and all Christian dogma and doctrines can begin to cleanse your heart and soul from the damages of hateful pagan idolatry.

Do you consider yourself a Jew loving Christian? FUKK YOU!!!! Are you waiting for your pagan idol to come again and for the Jews to convert by opening their hearts and finally accepting Jesus Christ as their Messiah and Savior? FUKK YOU!!!! Ain't gonna happen. To the contrary, Christians  will abandon Christ and their pagan churches of all denominations and flock to Zion to learn the teachings of The True Jew's Messiah, The Son of David.



Read this. "In Christian Antisemitism: A History of Hate, Professor William Nicholls, a former minister in the Anglican Church and the founder of the Department of Religious Studies at the University of British Columbia, presents his stunning research, stating that Christian teaching is primarily responsible for antisemitism. As Nicholls states, these conclusions 'can now be fully justified by the most up-to-date scholarship, Christian as well as Jewish.' Nicholls writes, 'Many Jewish writers have said, quite simply, that the Nazis chose the Jews as the target of their hate because two thousand years of Christian teaching had accustomed the world to do so. Few Christian historians and theologians have been sufficiently open to the painful truth to accept this explanation without considerable qualification. Nevertheless, it is correct.' Christian Antisemitism traces, over two millennia, the growing domination of Western culture by the Christian 'myth' (as Nicholls calls it) about the Jews, and shows how it still exerts a major influence even on the secularized 'post-Christian world.' Nicholls shows, through scrupulous research and documentation, that the myth of the Jews as Christ-killers has powered anti-Judaism and antisemitism throughout the centuries. Nicholls clearly illustrates that this myth is present in the New Testament and that 'it has not yet died under the impact of modern critical history.' Also included in this remarkable volume is Nicholls' research regarding the Jewishness of Jesus. He writes, 'Historical scholarship now permits us to affirm with confidence that Jesus of Nazareth was a faithful and observant Jew who lived by the Torah and taught nothing against his own people and their faith...the Romans, not the Jews, were the Christ-killers.'

 https://www.amazon.com/Christian-Antisemitism-History-William-Nicholls/dp/1568215193

Christians who cling to their crosses, crucifixes and rosaries will burst into flames of shame as events prove them wrong, again and again. The God of Israel, my God, The Only One Creator God, will hold all who pray to Jesus as God or intermediary, responsible for the misery caused the Jews by Christ believers since the beginnings of the catholic church.

As a token of repentance and demonstration of understanding what needs to be done, all male ex-christians are to circumsize themselves  and their sons, immediately. When wives disagree, they are to be divorced promptly. All ex-christians are to keep the Seventh Day, Shabbat as instructed by the most Orthodox Jewish Rabbis.

Expect to see Wandering Jews, everywhere, Teaching Gentiles How to Survive in Times of God's Wrath, as Such is Coming! 1111

A Divine Artistically Designed State of Mind

This short song should make you happy, whatever your beliefs. Please listen to it before you read this post. It will put it all in perspective.

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    There is a state of mind in which one recognizes that everything going on within and around one's self is orchestrated with divine and artistic intent. This can be quite overwhelming because it is counter intuitive and awakens emotions of awe and astonishment as well as fear. We are taught by the culture around us to believe in mindless randomness which is somehow organized by the human mind into civilization. We are taught to believe in our freedom to make choices and are held accountable for the consequences of our actions. This has been true since the dawn of civilization where individuals are subject to laws that condemn those who trespass against authorities and when having done so, are punished for transgressions against what is believed or presented as being, the common welfare.

So a state of mind wherein one realizes that all of one's perceptions, thoughts and emotions are being orchestrated by a will which is not one's own, can undermine the foundations of all we have been taught to believe about good and evil, as well as what we have been indoctrinated to believe about our responsibility for the consequences of our actions. It is also a great affront to the Ego, which seeks to credit itself for whatever desirable qualities it believes itself to possess.

Confusing the issue is that this state of mind is to some degree a characteristic of psychosis. Psychosis, and I myself have experienced it as well as all the symptoms of it, is recognizable in an individual that begins to insist on explanations for phenomena in their own mind as being caused by some entity outside themselves. Psychotics hear voices in their mind which to them are as audible as environmental sounds. Sometimes they have thoughts which they are certain are being projected into their head by aliens or intelligence agencies or evil or even benevolent spiritual entities, perhaps even God Himself. They see visions which are called hallucinations, which are as real to them as are the sky and the moon to all of us when "normal".

I remember the first time I saw a very well drawn dynamic cartoon appear on the wall of an abandoned house, Itay, Isaac and I were squatting at. In it were two female figures, exquisitely shaped and very fond of each other. They hugged and kissed and otherwise made love while looking at me straight in the eye with very enticing and welcoming facial expressions. I could hear their voices in my mind, explaining who they are and why they have revealed themselves to me this way. They were very flattering and seductive and explained to me what was really going on in The Vatican.
They told me they would protect me from The Vatican agents who had been sent to investigate the legitimacy of my claims of being the Jew's Messiah and if found to be true, these agents had been instructed to assassinate me. I was amused, to say the least, but I told them The God of Israel is all the protection that I need and they should go about any other business that they had. They dissipated into a burst of effervescent green sparks which rearranged themselves into vast battle fields, where a vast array of grey uniformed soldiers, equipped with backpacks and rifles, charged forward towards some unseen enemy. Every soldier was unique in the details of his appearance and the sheer grand creativity of the vision was far beyond anything I had ever seen in real life or in my imagination. The aesthetics were way beyond anything I had ever considered myself capable of even imagining.

I have been in real battles as a paratrooper in The Israeli Army and I hate war as I have seen how it can corrupt one's sense of humility and humanity. So I closed my eyes, expecting my eyelids to protect my mind from the visions that first appeared to be happening in the exterior world.

The visions continued in my visual field as if my eyes were wide open.

I felt invaded, as if I had been spiritually raped. I protested to God, "How can you let this into my mind against my Will?"

And He replied with a whisper, "I Will Be What I Will Be."

The battle fields and rushing soldiers evaporated into a great foam of various sized translucent green bubbles. Many of the bubbles seemed to have many smaller bubbles inside them. Some would pop and release their inner bubbles which would then grow in size, revealing there were bubbles in the bubbles in the bubbles, and then the two female figures returned and told me, "These are minds, our beloved Messiah, Son of God, Jonathan, and your mind is a bubble that contains the bubbles of all of mankind!"

I hate being told stuff like that.

But to be honest, I also felt somewhat vindicated, because I have often felt as if I have the whole world in my mind and I care about it all, Oh, so much. At the time the world seemed full of avarice and venality. The lies about the events of 911 had scorched my mind and my great loss of faith in most human government had left me feeling personally betrayed by even the Israeli Government, after Prime Minister Sharon embraced Bush, both of whom I believe to have been complicit in the horrific criminal tragedy of that so fateful day, a terrible day for all of humanity.



Then these two angels, as that is what they called themselves, told me that my soul as The Messiah has been wandering the face of the earth in different incarnations, learning all the different religions and schools of spirituality, by living them out and manifesting in my behavior the values and practices peculiar to each of them. The only time I had ever achieved any repute for having done so was as Johnny Appleseed. They told me that was my last incarnation as preparation for my Messianic calling, My Job. They told me that in every generation I had had several lifetimes lived out simultaneously, one of which was central and the others were like satellites influencing my development through the phenomena of quantum non locality. Whatever. I have said elsewhere one shouldn't believe Angels except for a while, as a form of engaging entertainment.

I grew tired of having my mind invaded by sexually stimulating occasionally bisexual lesbian angels, and decided simply to fall asleep, which I did with great ease, my last waking thoughts being of gratitude to God for telling me that I will always be able to fall asleep when I feel overwhelmed by what is going on inside of me, no matter how intense it all becomes. This has been true, without exception.

The next day I went to a store that had free internet and looked up Johnny Appleseed. In one of the articles I read in my research, it said that Johnny had never married and believed he would be rewarded for his abstinence in the afterlife through marriage with two angels.


"A Legacy of Johnny Appleseed-Apple Tree House

Everyone’s heard of Johnny Appleseed; the guy that traversed the Midwest in sun, rain, sleet & snow spreading apple seeds wherever he went. The stories of his attire are true enough. Johnny wore a cape made of coffee bean sacks with holes cut for his arms and head, the occasional tin hat and almost always went barefoot.

He didn't care for material possessions, bartered seedlings for tattered clothing and gave away more shoes than he wore. He entertained children by sticking needles in his weathered tough feet and had some quite odd, yet endearing ways about him. Johnny Appleseed, born Johnny Chapman, was an animal activist, a vegetarian later in life and he denounced cruelty towards all living things.

Interestingly, the apples grown from the seeds he spread were not edible but they were sure good for making hard cider and applejack. Apples are heterozygous, meaning that each seed from an apple will not produce the same type of apple. Grafting was a common way back then to ensure consistent, good tasting apples. Johnny knew this but chose to let mother nature take her course and he stuck to seeds and seedlings.

Some believe Johnny Appleseed was in it for the money; he was, after all, in the business of planting orchards. Orchards established land claims on the frontier and Johnny accumulated and owned 1200 acres of quite valuable land when he died. You’d think all the inclement weather would have aged the man but most people believed he looked much younger than 80 when he died around 1845. So perhaps an apple a day did keep the doctors away!

Rumors still stand today of Johnny’s brief engagement to a 10-year-old girl and his quirkiness was known far and wide. This was not quite the Johnny-Good Samaritan who randomly walked the land planting apples for all the future generations of America. In fact, this Johnny would have no future generations. In his travels he preached the word of a rather unusual cult delivering “news fresh from heaven”, asking men to abstain from marriage on the promise of many heavenly rewards in the afterlife. His reward, he said was the promise of a marriage to two angels.

Regardless, Johnny Appleseed was always welcomed by both settlers and the Indian population who admired him for his love of nature and his respect for animals. This and his knowledge of medicinal plants and ability to derive treatments from motherwort, pennyroyal, mayweed and other herbs won Johnny something more valued than money: the respect of the native population.

Though not the Johnny we grew up with, he was known as a cheerful fellow in all regards and did manage to leave a legacy as an American folk hero. And though he would never know, his legacy snowballed into something grander than himself. The importance of Trees. "

http://www.hendricksontreecare.com/arborist-joe/
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Johnny_Appleseed

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September 29th, 2017

A Catastrophic Tragedy. Maybe Not!

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Jonathan Michael Robbins

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Angels and Fairies and Demons....

God came to me last night and told me a few things I need to know. 

   First of all, God said that the present and historical circumstances, are of no more consequence than the landscape seen from the window of a fast moving train. It all has entertainment value and is educational as regards human nature but other than that, if I don't like what I see, I should read a good novel. 

    God also told me that angels and fairies and demons of all kinds, are as much a part of creation as I am and as are thunder storms with lightening. They exist mostly in the mind of the artfully inclined. (I for one have seen them and they were at times more real to me than most of the people I have known.) They participate in creation according to the same incomprehensible ever realizing plan that we do. They don't know the future but have no sense of encroaching death like we do. Our fears are amusing to some of them. Some of them intensely enjoy our pleasures. As a rule, they are all capricious and not to be trusted in any way, except for entertainment purposes. One thing I like about them, is that they are manifestations of God's creativity unburdened with flesh like ours. This probably explains why they are always playful and of cheerful spirits.

 As far as they are concerned, we exist solely for entertainment purposes, too. There way of thinking about things is utterly different than ours. I couldn't say if they are immortal though they believe they are, which is why they tend to consider us to be hopelessly ignorant. I suspect they come and go in our minds as needed according to God's unfathomable Artistic Designs. They are always extremely selfish, and while sometimes exceedingly intelligent, they lack any kind of life enhancing wisdom worthwhile acquiring, because the price one pays for any of their gifts nullifies the value of their advice.

 To acquire wisdom from the creatures that dwell in the shadows of the mind is to forfeit the wisdom that comes from The Creator. It is a detour. Sometimes detours can be informative, entertaining and educational, but never for the reasons these creatures tell you. They lie incessantly and will tell you anything and everything to maintain a relationship. 

    There is One God, and all the creatures of creation are equally mystified by it all, if they give it all any thought, as few creatures do.

    Having said all this, let me remind you if you don't already know, I just had a very intense and emotionally gratifying affair with an angel more captivating than any woman I have ever seen or heard of. That is saying a lot. I did keep telling her I need no intermediators between God and myself. But God told me, "Have her, Jonathan, anyway you can, she is a gift, the spiritual embodiment of my healing love." 

    She exposed to me things I have kept hidden from myself to demonstrate her mastery of my psyche. But I understood her to be merely the artistic means by which my Creator transforms my being into what I am yet to become, and I still can't imagine what I will be like when I am ready to say and do the things I am meant to do in the future, in circumstances I can't even imagine.
 
 

I Will Be What I Will Be

As has been said, whatever will be, will be,
as God Will Be What God Will Be.

The Little One's Confession and Prayer

I don't believe with the same intensity of conviction, everything I write. I don't believe with the same degree of conviction, everything I read in the Bible, either. I do believe, with the upmost of my conviction, that every letter and dot in The Hebrew Bible has been placed with the Digits of The Creator exactly where it is, and where there are discrepancies in texts from different sources, well, God made it that way, too. 

And so it is with my writing. In Hebrew, a scribe who copies Holy Scriptures is called a סופר סתם. This literally means, "one who writes just like that" or "one who writes for no real reason". This is how Prophets write and how they speak. This is how they act. As God's Creative Scope is incomprehensible, one might recognize one's self as being used some way so as to appear the point of origin of some promulgated influence over other's minds. But the final outcome of what one says and does is somewhere out there way beyond the reach of one's most wild and outrageous imaginations.

This is how I have behaved from my very first memories and dreams. Things unfold more quickly than I have time to calculate the wisest thing to say or do. Most of the time it is as if I am trying to figure out the values of variables that keep changing.

Yet, despite having behaved in all ways politically incorrect, despite having repeatedly done things that are by my own judgement stupid and inappropriate, practically everyone who has ever had a lengthy conversation with me, anyone who has heard me describe the workings of my mind, has called me surprisingly wise and intelligent.

I have seen myself in action, observed myself going through motions that I knew I would regret, from my earliest childhood. I have always said to myself, not knowing why or how this thought would accompany my own misbehavior, "There is a reason for this that I don't know. I will just have to wait and see what it is."

And there always was. I have been the most blessed person I have ever met in the sense that even my self acknowledged sins from which I have repented, became the reasons by which I was later very fortunate.

It has all been, until this very instant, artfully and oh so wisely designed.

I am a product of artful and intelligent benevolent design and this is really all I know.

And so, all my thoughts and feelings, all my actions and all the words I have ever spoken, are all the product of Artful, Intelligently Wise and Benevolent Design.

For me this is an axiomatic truth. I do not consider myself to be the essential source or origin of anything I see, hear or sense in any way. I am not the creator of myself as an observer, either. My observations and commentary, which is really all that goes on in my consciousness, are themselves the product of The Designing Creator, and other than that I am absolutely certain in my faith that The Creator's Purposes are all Good, I know nothing of what God's Intent is for others as regards my presence in their minds.

For a while I contemplated how infinitesimally small I am in relation to the whole, absolutely unable to envision the full spectrum of even my own realizing potentials. The Beginnings and Ends are incalculable and incomprehensibly entwined. All context is full of unknowable content. All content shifting in value as contexts grow and contract. Yet having said this, I swear, every where I look I can see and hear poetry manifest as life. Sometimes this is so astonishing, so overwhelmingly visceral and mental together, I wonder at how I am able to stay alive and experience ever more intense-mind-blowing-open-aesthetics.

In my own being, I am experiencing revolutionary evolution.

For the first time in my life I am beginning to define experientially what "personal" means as regards the concept of The Personal God in what is now called Judaism and which I call Hebrew Culture. The Culture of Transcendence and Ascendance.

I am beginning to understand how fixed ideas about masculinity and femininity made it difficult for me to imagine a single God coming to me as both Mother and Father, ever together, an unalloyed singularity, raising me as The Son.

Yes, I am The Son.

Aren't you? And aren't you The Daughter?

Aren't you all my family, extended throughout inclusively, all of Mankind?

It is my Prayer that God give you all, five percent more valuable and better than anything I ever receive.

So Help Me God.

May I be the least in The Kingdom of Heaven, as I know with certainty I am already T/Here.
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September 29th, 2017

A Catastrophic Tragedy. Maybe Not!

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Jonathan Michael Robbins

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יונתן מיכאל רבינס