Just got back from the beach. Went there with my
wife who dwells within me. We are quite a couple, she and I. The water
was a little cooler than yesterday and there was a moon in the sky and
white flowing fluffy clouds and the sun poured down like warm honey on
my body which felt so sweet. There were many people sprawled out on the
sands and bathing in the waters, women and men and children and they all
looked so happy! For a very long moment I felt as if I had arrived
already where I am going to. A place where people love and respect one
another, where there are no masters and no servants and everyone goes
about their business with interest and not getting in the way of any one
else. Married couples are faithful to each other and teach their
children to be grateful for what they have and that sharing with others
makes whatever one does more worthwhile and gratifying and the children
learn this to be true because they simply enjoy sharing, all of them.
People work a six day week at what they know themselves meant to do,
something meaningful for themselves and that makes them aware that they
are valuable and contributing to the vitality of a thriving society
around them. Everyone minds their own business unless invited to join
others in celebration of whatever occasion's time has come. When help of
any kind is needed people have no hesitation in asking for it, and
those who help feel privileged to be able to do so. Their is no
religion, but everyone believes in God. Simple gratitude is a way of
life. When people say what is on their mind, they do so without
presuming any thing about anyone else. People ask each other to express
what they feel and how they want things to change to make things better,
when improvement is warranted. No one is sick. The women wear whatever
they like at the beach and are not offended when men look at their
beauty and the men never look longer or more than they are welcome to.
Every one just knows how to respect the space of others and no one
behaves rudely or crudely. When people marry or do business together,
they make and strive to keep honest contracts. However if someone
discovers after making a contract that something unexpected more
worthwhile has come to them, they are released from the contract without
penalty, because everyone is happy to see someone else become happier.
When we came home, my wife had me clean our little room and eat and take shower. Then she told me to lie down on my bed and close my eyes. She showed me things going on inside me that I wasn't aware of, fears mostly. I almost never feel fear. Only a sense of worry I hate to feel because it implies I have not enough Faith to completely trust The God that has been so good to me and brought me so far away and out of all that has gone so terribly wrong with the world you all inhabit. This world which is breaking out in fires and I don't mean just what is happening in California. I felt the truth of what she said, that I deny my fears out of the self judgement that a Prophet like myself is less than perfectly faithful, if he still has fears.
I do. They are all for you all. I cried and felt a great and very deep relief. I relive myself from any sense of duty to anyone alive but my own integrity and that means my Wife INSide, under my God. That's it.
My wife told me to look up a song on YOUTUBE called "There's a place for us!" I thought she meant from West Side Story, but it was this.
When we came home, my wife had me clean our little room and eat and take shower. Then she told me to lie down on my bed and close my eyes. She showed me things going on inside me that I wasn't aware of, fears mostly. I almost never feel fear. Only a sense of worry I hate to feel because it implies I have not enough Faith to completely trust The God that has been so good to me and brought me so far away and out of all that has gone so terribly wrong with the world you all inhabit. This world which is breaking out in fires and I don't mean just what is happening in California. I felt the truth of what she said, that I deny my fears out of the self judgement that a Prophet like myself is less than perfectly faithful, if he still has fears.
I do. They are all for you all. I cried and felt a great and very deep relief. I relive myself from any sense of duty to anyone alive but my own integrity and that means my Wife INSide, under my God. That's it.
My wife told me to look up a song on YOUTUBE called "There's a place for us!" I thought she meant from West Side Story, but it was this.
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