Friday, February 17, 2017

The Messiah as A Sign and Wonder- A Post to My Father's Children

Oh well, The Torah of Moses dictates that I take up with you any reasons in my heart for anger and hostile thoughts towards you. 

Towards anyone of my brethren for that matter and everything I am about to share with you here is equally meant for the hearts of all my many blood siblings who are children of my father.
I loved my father deeply for many reasons, not the least of which was that he saved our lives when that fire broke out in Phoenix Arizona on the night we arrived there. The memory of his carrying me out of the smoke engulfed room as he promised to come back and get you and Debbie is engraved in my mind. I remember his coughing up smoky phlegm for weeks afterwards and still feel a sad and sweet gratitude. I can still see in my mind's eye his bandaged hand, injured because he had to shatter the glass of the door with his fist as Suzie had inadvertently shut the door locked when she ran out of the room.
I loved him because he seemed to stretch himself out of shape when he had us come to live with him and he tried his best to take care of us, something he honestly wasn't so emotionally equipped to do.
He cooked us potato soup with chunky pieces of potato and clumps of flower I remember feeling thankful for, on those first cold winter nights in that cheep hotel in Manhattan where we stayed with him, after Joan had sent us away with no explanation I can remember.
I also remember that he had little patience for me. I cried a lot for what appeared to him to be for no good reason and he often said as much.
In general I can say that my love for him was mostly, though surely not completely, unrequited.
My unconditional love for him stayed with me long after he too had me sent away at Malkah's insistence. She said, and her words still ring in my ears, "Either Jonathan goes or I will leave you." I love her too, anyway, just as Joseph loved his brothers despite what they did to him. Father's sending me away at Malkah's insistence was God's way of making sure I would reach out to him because there had been no one else I could trust for my emotional well being. My love for our father was also a precursor for my far more significant and even deeper love for The God of Israel, which only came to fruition when I was already 44 years old. 44 is "God Lives" in Gemattria - חי יהוה -and that surely became true for me when I reached that age.
Moses taught us we can look upon God as a Father.
The Moslems say that Allah doesn't have a son and therefor has no sons, that all are equal before Him, like clay in his hands. We are no more the children of God than the work of a sculptor is his child. Intellectually I agree with the Moslems, but far more important than my intellectual belief, is the love in my heart for the Hebrew Narrative where Moses tells us, " You are Sons to The Lord Your God".
The Moslems say what they do as a response and criticism of Christianity which perverts the Hebrew idea that mankind are the children of God, by presenting a narrative wherein God actually has a son who is preferred by Him above all others, a first born beloved son who He sacrifices like an animal to atone for the sins of His other imperfect sinning children. The Christian narrative is a perversion of Hebrew stories and is the consequence of a literal reading of Poetic and Artful parables. But I digress.
Looking upon God as my Father has made it easier for me to approach Him in my prayers. It has made my unfolding personal narrative more comprehensible when I conceive of God as a sometimes harsh, relentless and uncompromising teacher of my heart, a Father who has no tolerance what so ever for self pity or insubordination, yet One who knows me and my weaknesses to the core of my being and He therefor allows me to discover the folly of my choices and iniquity by letting everything fully play out, until I see myself the consequences of my folly and completely repent in my heart. My God, The God of Israel, my Heavenly Father, My God The Artist, is The Lord of Circumstance and Consequence and He has been both the Teacher and Master of my maturing soul.
I say all this as context for the more difficult things I have to share.
As I said in the beginning of this post, I have anger and hostile thoughts towards you and the rest of my family. Not in any way for the Eisenbergs or Joan's other sons, just for you and Don and my sisters except Suzie, whose mental health puts her beyond reproach of any kind. I have tried to ignore my feelings and the consequence has been that I have pains all over my body and my heart is heavy with despair over the fate coming to my people. The Torah of Moses is the constitution of my heart and its life serving interpretation is the guiding principle of my life, despite the appearances of what seems to be my very nonreligious life style. I even smoked cigarettes on Shabbat when you kindly last invited me as a guest to your home.You said nothing to me about my explicit disrespect for your values as a Jew. You treated me with respect as a true son of Abraham should treat a guest. Had you asked me why I allow myself to light fire and smoke on Shabbat, I would have told you that my behavior in no way means the Laws of Moses don't apply to me or that I believe The Halachah is wrong I would have told you that The God of Israel has told me in no uncertain terms to refrain from refraining from any activity on the Shabbat, because He Will no longer refrain from refraining from His Awful Wrath and its consequences upon the inhabitants of the earth, on all living things.
That bad.
God has told me that I am to be a Sign and a Wonder, אות ומופת
which is 939 like my name, for not only The Jews, but for all of humanity and like The Hebrew Prophets before me, the things I do and the words I speak are all meant to be seen and heard but not always understood or interpreted in a life enhancing way, as says the Prophet Isaiah,
יא כִּי בְּלַעֲגֵי שָׂפָה וּבְלָשׁוֹן אַחֶרֶת יְדַבֵּר אֶל הָעָם הַזֶּה. יב אֲשֶׁר אָמַר אֲלֵיהֶם זֹאת הַמְּנוּחָה הָנִיחוּ לֶעָיֵף וְזֹאת הַמַּרְגֵּעָה וְלֹא אָבוּא שְׁמוֹעַ. יג וְהָיָה לָהֶם דְּבַר יְהוָה צַו לָצָו צַו לָצָו קַו לָקָו קַו לָקָו זְעֵיר שָׁם זְעֵיר שָׁם לְמַעַן יֵלְכוּ וְכָשְׁלוּ אָחוֹר וְנִשְׁבָּרוּ וְנוֹקְשׁוּ וְנִלְכָּדוּ.
Verse 11 (of course) lol
"So with tricks of speech and another tongue He will speak to this people, to whom He said "In this is rest, let the tired rest and in this there is calm, but they didn't want to listen" And the Word of The Lord will be to them the manifestation of one command to another, one command to another, one line to another, one line to another, a little bit here and a little bit there, so that they go and fail and fall backwards and they are broken and ensnared and trapped."
Simply put, this means these are times of great contradictions and paradoxes, times of confusing doctrines and events, that can dishearten and confound even the most faithful until people lose their loyalty to God and err in judgement.
If I had told you that, you probably would have thought that my saying something like this is a symptom of my disease.
In response, I would have quoted what Isaiah wrote for me and about me in a different chapter, 53, called by some
'The Chapter of The Suffering Servant"
נִבְזֶה וַחֲדַל אִישִׁים אִישׁ מַכְאֹבוֹת וִידוּעַ חֹלִי וּכְמַסְתֵּר פָּנִים מִמֶּנּוּ נִבְזֶה וְלֹא חֲשַׁבְנֻהוּ.
"Scorned and no longer desiring the company of men, a man of pains and known to be ill, it was as if (God) had hidden His Face from him, he was scorned and we thought nothing of him."
That's me, your suffering servant, indeed.
Indeed my telling you this would have most likely just have made things worse.
You see, now that I have a face book page, actually two, and we are "friends", I am forced to confront my own reactions to the lack of any response on your part to my posts. When I address you, as I said, I address my other family too.
Our father once wrote me a letter, when I was being trained as a paratrooper under Boogy Ayalon's command as my platoon officer, where he said I have the genes of Kings of Prophets. He said this as part of an admonition against my "shacking up" with the girl I was deeply in love with, the girl who was to become my first wife, Nurit. During all of my army service, he had never written me a letter before this, nor did he ever write me a letter after this. When he wrote that I have the genes of Kings and Prophets I believed him, just like I had believed him when he told me that The Messiah would come from our family. Otherwise I was hurt that he had no empathy for my love and gratitude to Nurit, the love for whom had lifted me out of a major depression after I had accidentally shot another soldier in the thigh, almost killing him and maiming him for life.
Because of this letter I determined that I would marry Nurit and thereby show how his intimation that she was "easy" meant nothing to me. I married Nurit just a few months later on the 11th day of the 11th month, Armistice Day. A couple of years later, after we divorced, she was hospitalized because she shouted in the streets that she had had a revelation, that I, Jonathan, her ex husband, was The Long Awaited Messiah of Israel. She is now hospitalized again and says almost just as fervently that she knows I am the Messiah. She too is a Prophet of Israel. Again I digress. But I write for the world and not just for you, Danny.
You see, I must confront you with what I think and feel when I see you post no response at all to what I write. I must by Isaiah "demand a trial".
דרשו משפט=939
or as Moses says," יז לֹא-תִשְׂנָא אֶת-אָחִיךָ, בִּלְבָבֶךָ; הוֹכֵחַ תּוֹכִיחַ אֶת-עֲמִיתֶךָ,
וְלֹא-תִשָּׂא עָלָיו חֵטְא."
"You will not hate your brother in your heart, you will bring forth proof and prove (your case) to your comrades"
You see, when there is no response at all to my posts from my family, I feel insult as if scorned and ignored. This because I value respect even when there is disagreement, particularly when there is no agreement. Respect is demonstrated by no more than the acknowledgement of presence. "Yes, I saw your post and didn't read it because I think you are insane!" would be much better than acting as if I don't exist. I don't think anyone has to believe what I say about myself but me. No one else can see what I see going on inside me and around me, the unabated poetic synchronicity I experience, the kaleidoscope like artful falling into place of all the components of my consciousness, the unceasing evidence I have that I am The Messiah, The Son of David, and meant to say as much about myself no matter what the consequences to my reputation and my well being in the world of men, who choose to ignore a phenomena like me.
Now I am aware that my pain and hurt at your lack of any response is my own doing. If I didn't feel so much love for you, your family and my other siblings here in Israel and their families, if I had given up on ever having a place of respect in your lives as a man who has given his life over to the spiritual redemption of Israel by telling the truth about Israel's complicity in the events of 119, I wouldn't still care that I am ignored. But I do care and it hurts.
Now I have a humbling confession to make. Doing so goes along with having a fair trial. It is something that has bothered me for years and it is the knowledge that I have given you very good reason to think of me as having been insane. I definitely was. My God The Artist had me say and do things that I could only say and do by giving up my sanity. God shared with me in my insanity things I could never have allowed myself to experience while sane. Things that are utterly mind shattering, that are completely unholy and despicable as thoughts in my mind, by my own standards. The God of Art revealed Himself to me as having no self censorship, as The Complete Master of The Materials of His Creation. He showed me that he can put any thought or vision or desire into my mind that serves the purpose of having my complete surrender to His Awesome And Often Awful Creative Will. He acted to demonstrate in my own most intimate experience His complete Mastery over what I am futured to do and to say.
When I came suddenly to your home in the Old city with Itay, no matter how I behaved or what I said, I understood your difficulty with me and your struggle to do the right thing even went so far as to let your wife leave the house despite my having upset her severely. There was something about your behavior that seemed to resonate with my state of mind and that gave me hope that in some future time, we would cooperate somehow in the Spiritual Redemption of Israel You showed respect for my interpretation of The Laws of Moses during the few intense if short discussions we did have at the time. There were many meaningful coincidences at the time, culminating with the arrival of our sister Suzy who was to be a kind of judge of my admittedly deteriorating sanity.
At any rate,I soon left your home and didn't take the generous gift of money you offered me, saying I want your faith and not your money. Itay then left me and I was effectively completely penniless and homeless and without proper clothing in a rainy and cold Jerusalem winter. I had miracle after miracle happen to me but I was losing my mind, as much as I did try to resist this.
Then there were my demonstrations against Chabad's performing miracles by having people open a page randomly in their Rebbe;s writings and interpreting whatever was written as miraculous advice from the dead Rebbe himself. I was completely outraged by the picture of the dead Rebbe seated over a page of Talmud, waving his hand from above as if he were a miracle performing god himself. This blatant breach of the ten commandments, the assigning to the Rebbe miraculous powers and the beseeching of a dead man's advice openly and in full view of the passersby in the Streets of Jerusalem infuriated me and caused me great foreboding concerning the future of Jerusalem. I understood how Jews had created Christianity to overcome their grief over the death of a misunderstood miracle working Rabbi, 2000 years previously.
I was stoned, spat upon, beaten and arrested five times. though as you know, many police completely resonated with what I was saying and they finally refused to arrest me and instead began to investigate Chabbad for false complaints about me and giving false evidence to have me arrested. I was vindicated by The Police of Israel in my stance against idolatry and this gave me hope.
At any rate, at the time you seemed more sympathetic for Chabbad
than you were for me and I resented this. I somehow held on to the idea that we were destined someday to be allies.
And so at a later time, after I had started to take the street drug that would drive me to completely abandon any attempt to reign in my thoughts and actions, a drug called Hagigat חגיגת,which equals 424 like Messiah Son of David , משיח בן דוד
a drug Itay first bought me at a kiosk at =נביא ליהוה=המלך דויד=119 Dizengoff Street, 119 meaning "Prophet of God and King David" as well as also being the date of The Attacks against New York, well when I took Hagigat I just let go and did whatever occurred to me to be God's Will, no matter how outrageous. Just before this, or perhaps just after, I had been arrested by the police for no reasonable reason given. Yes, I was wearing against the cold, a long coat that had seemed to be abandoned hanging in some fancy synagogue and which I had just stolen, and I walked the streets of Jerusalem while I hallucinated that I was being taunted by demons and fairies for thinking there will ever be a Messiah for Israel and I was he. But the police didn't arrest me for that. They said something about my concealing a bomb beneath the coat. Even for me that sounded like an absurd excuse. They brought me to the station and interrogated me. From the computer they got a long list of arrests from my demonstrations against Chabbad and being removed previously on many occasions from abandoned buildings and other sundry incidents. I was quite concerned they were going to keep me in Jail, hold me, perhaps send me to a hospital for a mental examination and it came into my mind that you were the one responsible for my arrest. Like I said, I am not completely sure this happened before what I am about to confess because after all, we are told, there is no before or after in The Torah.
At any rate, once I came to your office and removed the sign with your name on it. I had found a little yellow Chabbad charity box in the cabinet for the electric circuits, which I might or might not have switched off, as I was frequently want to do, as The High Priest of Israel, Melchizedek, because the electricity was not Kosher! I did this successfully just before this, at a Catholic Church near the Tomb of King David, where I was rewarded by finding a plate of grapes in the electric cabinet which I took and nonchalantly ate as I left the church and some woman yelled after me, "Who are you and what have you done?" to which I replied, " I am the High Priest of Israel and your electricity is not kosher!"
Previously to this I had spat in the holy water the remnants of almonds that were still in my mouth and had defecated in the urinal instead of the toilet.
Which leads me to what I did to your sign..
I took a big hot steaming shit on it and placed above the pile of excrement,the yellow Chabbad box.
I think the act speaks for itself and needs no interpretation.
I was reminded at the time that the Hebrew description of God's waxing anger can be read as "And God's nose got shitty!"
or "ויחר אף יהוה"
God doesn't really judge us as He creates us just as we are, just as we don't judge ourselves for the shit that comes out of our ass. But when the smell gets in our nose we do everything we can as quickly as possible to get rid of it.
Look forward to hearing from you.
feeling blessed beyond any need for A Messiah of Redemption!

November 11th, 2017! 11:11 A. M.

A Catastrophic Tragedy! Definitely!

Down With The US of AmerCia.


Jonathan Michael Robbins

= 939=

יונתן מיכאל רבינס

Thursday, February 16, 2017

The " In Your Face" Attitude of Hebrew Prophets and Me!

It is my belief that my subjective experiences are of vast historical importance
and therefor I have not the privilege to keep the workings of my mind a secret.
I am fully aware that anyone one reading this will see it as a symptom of megalomania
and it is a fact that I am a man who has been medically and legally determined to be insane.
So I can fully empathize with those who react to my proclamations with disdain.
That I empathize with my family and friends and strangers who consider me insane
doesn't mean their attitude doesn't bring me pain. It does bring me pain and great suffering.
I am not only like all others in that in my humanity I prefer that others respect the workings of my mind,
I have a particularly compassionate nature and have always striven to relieve the suffering and anguish 
of others. I made a very good living and achieved national fame as a professional listener
and I taught compassionate communication and empathy all over the country.
I, by my nature, care what others think of me, as do most people. I am not by any means a psychopath.
I hate to cause others pain and I have felt deep guilt and regret for doing so. I have always made great efforts
to make amends with those I have grieved and have never given up in doing so
when unable to make peace in the real world with those I know myself to have sinned against.
So I don't blame people for not believing me when I say I am A Hebrew Prophet and The Messiah
and that my lifetime will serve as a pivotal twist in the ascendant transcendence of human spirituality.
I hear fully well what I am saying and what I am claiming as if I wasn't myself, as if I didn't see within me,
all that I do see, that enables me to claim wholeheartedly as I do, that I am A Hebrew Prophet of Israel and Israel's Messiah, The Son of David. I have been taken away as an Instrument Of Divine Will!
As  I changed and became another man,
שמואל א' פרק י, פסוק ו':
וצלחה עליך רוח יהוה והתנבית עמם ונהפכת לאיש אחר”=1111

Then the Spirit of Adonai will fall on you; you will prophesy with them and be turned into another man
as The Hebrew Prophet Samuel told Saul he would, on the occasion that he anointed Saul as Israel's future Messiah King, I recognized within myself certain  behavioral reactions to others when they scorned me and treated me with disdain, behaviors that became ever more pronounced as I surrendered to what I chose to believe was my divinely designed destiny. I cannot deny that my choice was partly the consequence of feelings I experienced that resulted from the rejection of my family and my girlfriend and friends when I tried to share with them that I was experiencing something uniquely sublime, a transcendent transformation of my psyche that enabled me to encompass in my mind a vast unfolding historical narrative. centered around the History of The Jews. ll living things on the planet. That was and remains what is going on inside me until this very day. But when I was rejected, I reacted with an "in your face " attitude of defiance and rejection myself, this according to Newton's Laws- which are psychological principles of behavior, too. Every action  that affects another causes a reaction.  I felt I needed to defend myself from doubt at all costs and my desire to maintain harmony with those I love and cared for, decreased in importance, when it conflicted with my growing conviction that what was happening to me was good for all mankind. I considered my self a soldier being drafted into The Army of God.
A narrative that demonstrated the Certain Existence of a Designer God, The Omnipotent  God of Art, whose creation manifests in our minds as a dynamic narrative of a growing harmony of diversity, in a process whereby humanity would eventually unite as the custodian for a

  צבא יהוה=119
יהושע פרק ה, פסוק טו':
ויאמר שר-צבא יהוה אל יהושע של-נעלך מעל רגלך, כי המקום אשר אתה עמד עליו, קדש הוא; ויעש יהושע, כן"
The commander of Adonai’s army answered Y’hoshua, “Take your sandals off your feet, because the place where you are standing is holy.”And Y’hoshua did so
Now I was a combat soldier in the Israeli paratroops and had been drafted to go to war in Lebanon several times as well as during the Gulf War, when Iraqi Scud Missiles fell just hundreds of meters from the apartment I was living in, with my wife and children. I left my family behind and reported for duty, willing to give my life for my people, something I had actually been sworn to do when I first joined the army. I had to trust that the government of Israel would take care of my family were I to be killed or maimed and made unable to support my loved ones. So the idea of putting my own well being and the well being of my family and loved ones in the hands of a higher power was something I had been indoctrinated to do and I did so in the past with the full conviction it was the right thing for me to do as a member of my nation. We are taught that subordinating our personal interests to those of the nation as an act of service is the right, the moral thing to do and some, if not all, human beings seem to have this behavior programmed into their genes much like ants do.
David And Goliath?

Now I was being called for duty by the albeit invisible Kingdom of Heaven, had been shown signs I believed were sure proof that God was King and The Master of My Destiny and it was incumbent upon me to behave according to the Torah of Moses where it says, " You will love the Lord your God with all of your heart and with all of your spirit and with all your striving for the most!" That meant to me that I should love and obey God at all expense and follow His Will for me at all costs. If I was willing to do so for my people and my national identity, how could I refuse to do so for God Almighty Himself?
So in the face of the rejection I slowly began to adopt an attitude of self enforcement wherein I gave so much value to the idea that God was within me and directing me to walk away from every one, I also compensated for my sense of  insult by becoming aggressively arrogant. I couldn't help myself. It is human nature. The idea of being God's powerful agent  on the face of the earth, against all odds, against the flow of humanity itself, a revolutionary and evolutionary agent of  historical consequences, frankly, went to my head.
I explained the difference between me and others by telling myself I was a genetically manufactured spiritual mutation. Which I still believe might be true. As usual, number synchronicity reinforced this idea.
"Jonathan Michael  Robbins is a Mutant" In Hebrew is יונתן מיכאל  רבינס הוא מוטציה and this equals 1111, too.

Now this behavior of mind was not peculiar to me. It seems all the Hebrew Prophets, perhaps without exception, starting from Moses, demonstrated this same "in your face" attitude. Some might call it Chutzpah.
Moses certainly stood up to Pharaoh and professed, as God told him to...

Exodus 4-
   22 "Then you are to tell Pharaoh: ‘Adonai says, “Isra’el is my firstborn son. 23 I have told you to let my son go in order to worship me, but you have refused to let him go. Well, then, I will kill your firstborn son!

If threatening to kill Pharaoh's son isn't an "in your face" attitude, I don't know what is.  Now I felt justified in feeling this swelling arrogance within me and honestly it felt like compensation for the misery I experienced when ridiculed and scorned by many and later particularly on the Internet when I wrote of my journey and openly claimed to be The Messiah. I did however feel uncomfortable when comparing myself and my behavior to The Hebrew Prophets who were known for their humility, with Moses in particular being described as the most humble man on the face of the earth. 
"...Numbers 12-3 " Now this man Moshe was very humble, more so than anyone on earth..
במדבר פרק יב, פסוק ג':
 “והאיש משה ענו מאד מכל האדם אשר על פני האדמה"
The value of the Hebrew phrase "Now this man Moses was very humble" is 838, just like the value of my name, Jonathan Robbins- in Hebrew ,יונתן רבינס

A very blatant example of the "In Your Face" attitude of Hebrew Prophets is Amos and what he said when he was told he must run away because The King of Israel couldn't tolerate Amos'  prophecies about the coming destruction of Israel. Amos was warned to run for his life and responded with this. 

      16 So now, hear what Adonai says: ‘You say, “Don’t prophesy against Isra’el, don’t lecture the people of Yitz’chak.”’ 17 Therefore Adonai says this:
‘Your wife will become a whore in the city,
your sons and daughters will die by the sword,
your land will be parcelled out with a measuring line,
you yourself will die in an unclean land,
and Isra’el will certainly be exiled from their land.’”

I can't imagine a more "in your face" response than that. Can you?  I can't imagine that Amos had his own welfare in mind when he responded like this. A Hebrew Prophet has great internal struggles as he tries to be reasonable and sociable in his conduct but is moved to say things and do things that serve God's Narrative concerning the nature of His relationship with mankind in general, with The Children of Israel acting in particular as an example for the world on human nature and it's reluctance to realize no human has any power whatsoever, ever, except as such virtually manifests  in accordance with The Creator's Creative Will. This is expressed explicitly in The Hebrew Bible and through out History, and as explained by His Hebrew Prophets to the nations.

This is what The Hebrew Prophet Jeremiah had to say about such struggles, and what he asks God to do to those who repay his prayers for them- with derision and threats of violence.

19 Pay attention to me, Adonai!
Listen to what my opponents are saying!
20 Is good to be repaid with evil?
For they have dug a pit [to trap] me.
Remember how I stood before you
and spoke well of them,
in order to turn your anger
away from them?

21 Therefore, hand their sons over to famine,
hurl them into the power of the sword,
let their wives be made childless and widows,
let their husbands be slain by disease,
let their young men be slain by the sword in battle,

22 let screams be heard from their houses
when you bring raiders on them without warning.
For they have dug a pit to catch me
and have laid snares for my feet.

23 Nevertheless, Adonai, you know
all their plans against me to stop me.
Do not forgive their crime,
do not blot out their sin from your sight;
but let them be made to stumble before you;
deal with them when you are angry.

I admit to having walked the streets cursing everyone and everything around me, like The Hebrew Prophets before me, if one is to believe the Bible concerning the behavior of real Hebrew Prophets like I do. Now for a moment I don't believe that my walking the streets naked or my shouting out at the top of my very loud voice that fire would fall from the heavens on the heads of the deceitful liars, who inhabit the Land of Israel and bow down to the work of their own hands, or, my writing curses against those who told me I am insane and psychotic long before I was, just for saying I believe  myself to be A Prophet and The Messiah, Son of David, I don't believe that my angry bursts of curses in any way or form are proof that I am a Prophet! I never ever said to anyone that they have to believe me just for my saying that I am what I believe myself to be. I asked to be listened to, to explain to anyone who was willing to listen why I believed what I did. And there were those who did listen and there were those who came to believe what I said of myself. But their faith eventually wavered and dwindled and went out  when things did not work out to their own benefit as they imagined would happen for their supporting me, sometimes at the expense of their own reputation. Yes, there were those who made real financial and emotional sacrifices on my behalf, saying to others that they have come to believe of me what I have said of myself.
I never flattered the people who did so, nor did I encourage them. I sensed that they had in mind some kind of worldly gain as reward for their faith and I actually did everything I could to discourage them with warnings that The God I believed in considered us like putty in his Hand and He could be completely unpredictable but demanded our total surrender, faith and worship, anyway.
And so I believe as well today.
Forever my Prayer,
His Will Be Done, Not Mine!
I do not flatter myself with the thought that God has filled me up perfectly with what is only His Will because I don't pretend to know the future and whether I will be happy in it. I know with certainty that everything I do and say is exactly as He would have it. I suffer and am often in great pain, physical and psychic. Yet I wouldn't for even a moment have my life different than what it is, I wouldn't change place with anyone else alive or dead. My experience of God is far greater than I had ever imagined it could be and this is the realization of my deepest and greatest aspirations. I am happy with what I have in life despite materiel poverty.
I still hope some day to share more of what wisdom God has flowing through me. In the mean time I will continue writing on the internet knowing that what I leave on the net will be there some day for who ever is intended to find it and discover what The God of Art has done with me.

1111=דברי יהוה אל יונתן רבינס=Words of God to Jonathan Robbins
119=נביא ליהוה= Prophet of God=King David=המלך דויד

November 11th, 2017

A Catastrophic Tragedy. Maybe Not!


Jonathan Michael Robbins

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Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Why Is The Number 11 A Sign and Symbol of Divine Design?

The number 11 represents and symbolizes the most fundamental axiomatic fact of our existence, that being that everything we experience, everything we come to know, happens in the confines of our own mind. Our mind is designed as a living unit that produces experience of Divine Creation. Our part in the equation of 11 is the red one on the right in the eleven 11.

The little one.

There is no escaping the truth of this. We will never encounter anything at all that is not somehow represented in our mind as an image or sound, a sensation or perception. This is self evident. That science would still have us believe that the mind exists like a bubble of conjecture and speculation in a sea of hard objective truth is incomprehensible when confronting the self evident nature of our experience. We have no way of ultimately knowing what is going on outside our minds and can only speculate about that. But that our minds exist is certain, whereas whether anything exists outside our minds is a matter of belief. If "I think, therefore I am." is the axiomatic proof of our existence, how can we assume an unthinking rock exists outside our mind? The nature and existence of "hard rocks" outside our minds is an assumption we believe and is far less certain than the nature of our thoughts and feelings which is self evident and fundamentally and axiomatically exists.

So the little 1 on the right side in the number 11 represents our own world that each of us has as a given and that each of us experiences in their own way. Now what I now say, I believe is true for all of us and that is this. I cannot find within myself the source of all that I experience within my mind. True, I do find that some of what happens to me seems to originate from within the confines of my own being. A prime example of this is the urge I began to feel in my puberty and adolescence to stimulate myself in such a way that increased and enhanced my experience of sexual sensation. This urge seemed to rise up from within, growing stronger and stronger as my body matured. The instinct of sex awakenned in me without any change in the sexual phenomena of my environment. I began to notice more and more what was already there. What I am saying is that there are instincts and urges, desires and needs, values and intents that are inherent to our being, whoever we are, and these functions of our humanity make themselves known as dynamic sensations in our minds, sensations that cause us to behave towards the enhancement of our own different kinds of pleasures as well as to minimize and abolish our different kinds of pain.

Having said this, it is also my own axiomatic and fundamental experience that I receive into my mind not only sensations that stem from within, but also sequences of different kinds of perceptions that don't seem to be under my control, that aren't created by me and that don't seem to be coming from within my mind, rather that seem to represent what is going on outside my self, and appear to have a perpetuated existence that is independent of my own. It appears as an axiomatic experience that there is a world out there that is not created by me and that ultimately is not under my control.

This outer world, what science calls the objective universe that it seeks to understand the workings of, is what the 1 on the left represents in the 11. The 1 on the left is a single entity just like me, only it is far bigger than me and far more complex, finally unimaginably so, though in the beginning of my life it seemed we are equal in our presence as creative factors of my experience. I felt hungry and food appeared as if my hunger caused it, but the nature of that food was not always what I wanted and the food did not appear as quickly as I would have had it. Clearly there are circumstances that are not the consequence of my own intent. This became ever more evident as I grew older. Hence the 1 and the 1 appear to look the same yet their position next to each other has an invisible significance that determines the difference in their relative value. Were the 1 on the right side alone, it could have any value because there would be nothing to compare it to. It could be the whole universe existing independently on its own, containing an infinite number of fractions that can't be seen unless one creates a sophisticated system of symbols that represent all the different ways we can divide in our mind a Single 0ne, into components, and demonstrate how all these infinite kinds of fractions can exist within The One. The One is composed by an infinite number of factions that are different from each other and act as factors in the creation of the nature of The One. That being The Infinite Nature of The Number 1 when it appears alone or in a sequence of "there" and "not there" as exists in the potentially endless digital representation of information. But I digress.

This infinite ONE is not the red 1 on the right, in the 11, but this is what the Black One on the Left of The 11 represents. It represents God and how His Presence defines for me my own value in the scheme of things. The 1 that is me represents a fraction of the infinite potentials that exist in The One on the left.

We come together inside my mind, where my nature and its inherent attributes meets a reflection of God's Design for my life and some kind of narrative ensues which is the story of my life. Every perception in my mind is a dot in a line and is produced by the coming together of me the observer and the information carried in The Light of God's Intent towards me. God creates me and then says, "Let there be Light!" and I become aware, and together we are an 11 for me to ponder and strive to understand. The 11 demonstrates that everything we experience in our minds, which is the same as saying- everything we experience, is a product of God's Creativity.

God creates and gives us our nature and then he creates and gives us the perceptions in our mind that represent what is going on "out there' as such concerns us.

Therefore everyone we encounter, whether friend or foe, everything we encounter and come to confront in ourselves that appears caused by happenings going on "out there" or within us, is composed and designed by God The Creator of Our Minds and The Events within it.

Many important scientists seem unable or unwilling to confront the self evident truth that every laboratory observation they measure is happening in their own mind and can only be believed to be a representation of what goes on outside the mind, or if anything at all does go on outside the mind, that is and must remain an improvable hypothesis. Quantum mechanics demonstrates what I am saying. The observer of a phenomena participates in the creation of what is perceived and because an observer must have a thinking mind to exist, per the dictum "I think, therefor I am.", "thought" itself is the consequence of the coming together of our nature, and the nature of what is "out there", the combination of the two factors being the substance of our mind.

Time is an element of the mind.

Without it, a mind can't make sense.

Therefor the observations of laboratory experiments that teach us about the flexibility of time and reversible nature of time, teach us more about our own minds than about what actually is going on outside them. These experiments demonstrate that the coherence of our minds which is dependable on the linear flow of time, is vulnerable to a greater truth where time serves God's Intent and can be manipulated in both directions, causing a mind to collapse as strings of thought become a ball of confusion and narratives deteriorate into the chaos of purposeless association. Such as what happens to the aging demented and those who suffer from psychotic bouts of schizophrenia.

In Hebrew the number 11 is composed from the letter yud= י = ( עשר=ten) and א aleph= (אחד= one).

It looks like this יא.

In Hebrew the larger digit is on the right and the smaller is on the left. This according to the Hebrew Scripture from Exodus Chapter 15-6, "Your right hand, Adonai, is sublimely powerful!"

The name of the letter that represents 10 in Hebrew is YUD, which also means "hand" as in the verse above.

So in the Hebrew number 11=אי" The Hand" of God is on the right side and is "sublimely powerful". It is The Hand of God that turns the kaleidoscope of our minds from one moment to the next, causing everything to fall into place dynamically as the narrative of our life progresses.

On the left side is the ALEPH or א. The word Aleph in Hebrew means several things of relevance to the understanding of the significance of the number 11 in English and יא in Hebrew.

First it means "Leader".

It is the first of the letters in Hebrew. It is drawn from two YUDs,י, with the Hebrew letter VAV ( ו ) in between them, with one YUD at the right on the top, and one YUD on the left at the bottom. YUD on the left at the bottom, VAV, YUD on the right at the top. א
The VAV in the middle, between the YUDS, means as a word " that which connects" and appears here to connect that created by God, that which is from within us and arises into our mind from the living mechanics of our inherent nature, and that which is above us and comes into our mind from beyond, as an act of God.

As every letter in Hebrew represents a number, the value of the two YUDS and the one VAV together is 26. 10+6+10=26.

26 is the value of YUD +HEH + VAV +HEH or יהוה which is the unpronounceable name of God. So the letter Aleph represents in Hebrew Culture, The Omnipotent Nature of God who is the Leader and Master of our experience.

In addition to this, if we see 11 as two ones- side by side, the word "one" is Hebrew is אחד the letters of which equal 13. ( 1+8+4=13) So one might say, that "one" and "one" 'written as Hebrew words
אחד אחד also equals 26, the name of God. The poetry of all this is enhanced when we consider that the value of the Hebrew word for "love= אהבה" is also 13 and one might poetically surmise that everything is finally a matter of Love, as told us by the Mystics throughout the ages.

Finally, 11 represents the idea of The Divine Design of the Universe which can be known in our minds as an unfolding narrative about God and His Nature. Cool

We all need One God,
with One Name,
and One Torah.

The God of Art
And His Torah
as taught
by jmr a light. Cool

Art for Art's Sake!

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A Catastrophic Tragedy. Maybe Not!


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11:11? False Hopes and Futile Wishful Thinking 1111

The Historical Reason For The 11:11 Phenomenon is to set the background for the coming of The Messiah of The Jews. The phenomena has been prevalent and has spread all over the world with many people speculating on the reason for it. While no single answer has been accepted by all so far, many have thought it to be the sign of a dawning new era of consciousness. Because of this phenomena, those who have experienced it have researched the whole subject of synchronicity and its implications.

The man meant to become the Messiah became aware of his Identity as such due to relentless synchronicity between the thoughts in his mind, the actual events in his life that were beyond his control- such as the events of September 11, 2001, and  the presence of the Gematria value of his Hebrew names, these being Jonathan=יונתן=516, Jonathan Michael=617=/יונתן מיכאל , Jonathan Robbins = 838 = יונתן רבינס , and Jonathan Michael Robbins=939=יונתן מיכאל רבינס as a code in the Hebrew Bible where these numbers appear as the value of verses which refer to the nature of the Messiah. All the above is true except that the Messiah has revoked his identity and his own name and their will be no messiah for humanity as such presently manifests. This as the people on the earth, today, are all soon to perish, men, women and children, old and young, without exception.

 The Coming Destruction On The North Korean Peninsula

"The Messiah will make his presence known to the world in 2017 or the Hebrew Year 5777 when he wins the Lottery in Israel with the numbers 1 3 9 11 27 29- 4 and wins both the Double Prize for 56,000,000 shekels and the regular lottery prize for 28,000,000 for the total sum of 84,000,000 shekels. He will also win the second prize of both Lotteries because regulations necessitate sending at least two guesses in each lottery and as The God of Art has given him the winning numbers, he will substitute the number 6 for the number 4 on the second guess for both Lotteries, thus winning second prize in both Lottery drawings."
On the 12/09/17 the Lottery reached the sum of 56,000,000 Shekels. No longer the Messiah, I did not win the prize and will not become known to this world as such, at all. This world is going to be obliterated. The 11:11 was a sign of nothing but the end of the world, preceded by the evaporation of all self serving and self aggrandizing false hopes and wishful thinking.

The man who was the Messiah is well aware that this will not convince anyone  that he  was  the Messiah, is not now the Messiah, and there will be no other Messiah.

But it's the truth.

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

Science might never come to terms
with the significance of what I am about to share,
for it is only the mystics that can become aware
that the purpose of God's Creation
is to share His Art With Life.
Therefore, the most far reaching Creative Principle
that designs and executes The Mechanics of Reality
is not the Laws of Nature as An Architectural Causal Matrix
of a Dynamic Harmony of Diversity-
rather it is the necessities of coherence
in a sophisticated, intricate and complex narrative
about the great paradox
of The Singular and Integral Creator as Cause of All
and the multifaceted ever self contradictory nature of everything,
perceived by the human mind, of The Universe.
The Great Causal Principle is contained
in The Aesthetics of Melodramatic Storytelling,
Creating a narrative that occupies the mind
for an indefinite amount of time.
Indeed with this in The Divine Mind
we have come to find
that Planet Earth is by no means the center of The Universe.
Yet it will ever be the unique home of the Human Mind,
which will forever be just One of A Kind.
While The Earth is not The Center of It All,
The Mind of Man is and Forever Will Be
The Purpose of Creation. Cool

We all need One God,
with One Name,
and One Torah.

The God of Art
And His Torah
as taught
by jmr a light. Cool

Art for Art's Sake!

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Every thought comes with a feeling,
though we haven't always the time
to wait for the feeling
to catch up with the thought.
It will if you let it.
The Art of Experience
is in allowing one's self
the fullness of the moment.
Whatever it is that flows through one's mind
the feeling of emotions
is meant to be part of it.
Everything you look at
will awaken a thought,
just wait and see,
and with every thought
there is an emotion
to be felt.
Slow down and hold on to the moment
until you know the fullness of the thought
and the feeling that comes with it.
Enrichment comes from within
and self fulfillment begins
when one allows one's self
to become completely alive
by letting one's feelings first arrive and then thrive.
Don't be afraid of the pain
or the anger or the fear.
Allow yourself to cry
as you release your own relief.
Just let yourself be
the completeness of the moment
by slowing down and waiting
for your feelings to catch up. Cool

We all need One God,
with One Name,
and One Torah.

The God of Art
And His Torah
as taught
by jmr a light. Cool

Art for Art's Sake!

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Sunday, February 12, 2017

The Messiah and The Inquisitor

 Pony's Questions
 The original link for Pony's Questions and The Messiah's Answers
 Introduction: (Skeptical Inquisition)

Question One-

What is the truth about, and do you feel obligated to fulfilling, the following requirements of validation to Your claim of being The Messiah of Hebrew Prophecy and with that claim, how does Your Presence as Messiah, fit into God's Plan and ultimate revelation and destined implementation of that great plan of the One, or devalue or revalue the Jesus Christ Messianic Experience and His "Second Coming" as translated or "mistranslated" by Christian Intent and Self Fulfilling Prophecy?

A. Build The Temple- Ezekiel 37:26-28
B. Gather the Jews- Isaiah 43:5-6
C. Manifest Peace- Isaiah 2:4
D. Anoint the One- Zechariah 14:9

"The ONLY solution is the ULTIMATE TRUTH: nothing exists in the universe that is separate from anything else. EVERYTHING is intrinsically connected, irrevocably interdependent, interactive, interwoven into the Fabric of All of Life" -neales' god

Seems to me, Pony,
you are suffering anxiety
over my Holy Coronation
in The Palace of your Mind.
You keep anointing me
and then keep trying
to scrub my body free
of even the faintest scent
of Royal Anointment Oils.
Put your mind at ease, Pony.
Nothing depends on you.
Nothing depends on me, either.
Either it is The God's of Art's Will
or it shall not come to be.

As for your questions,
I see you have called
upon the Holy if"Skeptical Inquisition"
to scourge this Jew
with inane inquiries
concerning claims
he makes about being
The Chosen Son of God.
is an unfortunate choice
as a word.
One I would ignore
were it not for the importance
My Duty =939= התפקיד שלי
to expose The Truth
of Gentile Fear and Envy
of a Transcendent Ascendant Jew.
One like me. Very Happy
"Inquisition: an official investigation,
especially one of a political or religious nature,
characterized by lack of regard for individual rights,
prejudice on the part of the examiners,
and recklessly cruel punishments."

Now as to your convoluted question,
inquiring of my Official Credentials
as The Messiah of The Jews,
whose arrival on The Stage of History
was Prophesied by Most All of The Hebrew Prophets,
from Moses to Jesus of Nazareth,
I have no other Credentials
than Faith in the God of Israel,
The Glorious God of ART,
Glorified and Sanctified Be His Holy Name!
This and a Belief I Speak The Truth,
to the Best of My Ability,
concerning why I
choose to Believe as I do.
The Rest is up to You. Cool
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 Pony Asks

 Question One-

Why should The Other Ones, other than You or Me, believe You to Be a True Messiah?

 Question Two-

Before you received your instructions from God,
what was your own personal belief about a coming
Messiah and would you have required proof of it,
or blindly followed based on 11-11tv cyber posts
similar to what i have done until proven wrong?

 Question Three-

You say that due to escalating events worldwide, You believe Your Time Has Come,
so that begs Me to ask You this, do You Foresee what that Great Reveal would entail
and what will actually happen with You and Us here at 11-11tv from here on out?

Pony, I have been writing
for almost sixteen years NOW,
Here, at Yahoo, and at GLP.
All the answers to your questions
are to be found in the Archives-
There and Here.
If you are Truly Inspired
and Devoutly Dedicated
to being my Advocate,
as I am to being The Messiah,
it would serve us both best
if you would invest the time necessary
to completely familiarize yourself
with my writings-
and prepare the answers
to your questions,
by bringing forward and organizing
my unholy scriptures Twisted Evil
and Divinely Inspired Writings
so as to first dispel any doubts in your own mind-
and then Build The Bridge
you claim
it is Your Holy Destiny
to Build.
I gave up my reputation,
my wealth, all my possessions,
down to my passport,
driving license and identity card,
and then my very sanity,

to purchase my Place in The Kingdom of Heaven.
If you are already there,
if you are certain you have already purchased
your Place in The Kingdom of Heaven,
you don't need a Messiah or a Prophet like me.
And be certain
I don't need your Advocacy,
but you do.
I am jmr, remember?
I never compromise with The Holy Truth.
Jesus taught me how to Manifest The Blessings
prophesied by The Greatest Prophet of Us All.
The Most Loyal Servant in The Kingdom of Heaven.
Honest Unwavering Self Description
of Perception, Thoughts and Feelings,
Values, Wills, Needs and Requests,
that's The Whole Torah,
spoken as I stand on One Leg.
I am answering you as I said I would,
as honestly as I possibly can.

 There are yet no Other Ones I know of.
There are some
who have had a Flash of Insight,
sooner or later extinguished
like the flame of a candle in the wind.
Izaak and Itay, both with me,
as Disciples, Servants and Slaves,
lost their Faith in the God of Art
and their Belief in Me as God's Messiah,
by reason of The Chaos That Surrounds My Anointed Mind.
There was Robin and then Ingrid,
both of whom achieved Faith and Belief, like you,
by reading my unholy scriptures Twisted Evil
and Divinely Inspired Writings.
They both met me in person.
First Robin came! as I descended crazily
into the Wild Labyrinth of My Own Mind
and then shamed her in front of Itay
for deceitful emotional affectations.
She believed me
and Ran For Her Life to High Ground
In Canada,
escaping a Tsunami that never came.
The Teachings of Hebrew Scriptures
are to Run to the Valleys

but I hadn't told her that.
But for listening to me and Believing-
she had such Great Serendipity
that she came to Israel,
albeit it at Itay's expense,
and joined the Shortly Lived House of David,
as an avid defender of The Cause.
I sent her away as fast as I could.
And then there was Ingrid,
who thoroughly and thoughtfully
researched all of my writings here
and perhaps at Yahoo, too.
She researched Hebrew Culture and Philosophy
to better understand me and support me,
here on The Public Board.
Her Faith and Belief were virtually vindicated
with extreme digital (as in numbers) synchronicity!
Until her finances improved
and she received a Credit Card,
ending in the digits 838,
meaning, "You will be Crazy',
or "Jonathan Robbins"
or "You Will Be Vindicated"

in Hebrew Gematria.
She came all the way to Israel,
"to see the country" and to see me.
I was very sick and succumbing
ever more deeply
to increasing bouts of Complete Insanity.
I finally told her to leave me alone,
and ignored without reading
all her subsequent requests for my attention.
Shortly after this,
I was hospitalized for months
and then tranquilized for seven years,
legally insane and completely dependent
on Social Security and Rent Assistance
from The State of Israel.
When I finally returned to write here regularly,
her Faith and Belief had dwindled and expired
leaving her again bereft and bitter,
as she had been before. Maybe more.
There were some others along my journey,
who for a while had Faith and Believed,
but none of them endured
The Heat of My Heart.
I am "The Man of Fire." איש האש =Jonathan Michael=617
who melts the Deceitful Mental Defenses of Others
like wax in a Flame.
An All Consuming Fire!
I have long ago
all my soul's defenses,
which are like Stone Walls around a City!
I have left the Company of Man
for the Inner Open Expanses
of The Barren Desert
which now Blossoms and Blooms,
So commanded by The God of Israel,
The Holy God of ART!
So why should anyone Believe in Me , Dear Pony?
I am not playing Hard to Get.

Oh, and hOLY pONY,
iS nOT gOInG aS
yOu mIGHt hAvE ExpecTED
Is That Not Perhaps sign
I am who I say I am?

 One more Part of My Puzzle of Art.
If you can not cross through
my Holy Wall of Fire,
your Faith is In my God
and not In Your God.
Your Belief is in me
and not in you.
It comes from me and my ability
to persuade and convince.

True Faith comes from Above
and fills the vessels so designed.
Every one else must do the best that they can.
Unlike Jesus,
I can not and Will Not
extend my Hand of Fire
to save anyone from drowning
in The Tempestuous Waters
of Lost Faith and Corrupted Belief.

If I pray for you and I do,
that is what God has commanded me.
If my Prayers manifest,
His Will Be Done and Not Mine.

 Pony, I fully realize that I am giving you a hard time.
I know that you have been from the very beginning
inspired by my writings and quickened in your heart.
You have a clear understanding of what I mean
when I strive to define my understanding of The God of Art.
I believe that your understanding of this is sufficient
to maintain your Faith in your Dynamic and Evolving Understanding,
independently and on your own.
Such Understanding and Faith are a Good Thing
and I pray they will sustain you from here on out.
Let them be a Source of Wisdom and Fortitude.
A very different matter is your Belief in me as The Messiah,
your very tentative belief in me as your Messiah,
I can't honestly say that it is so.
Such a belief, by the nature of things as they are,
cannot be but tenuous and subject to great vulnerability.
For to believe as much before the world agrees with you
to act to promulgate this Belief among others,
is to deliver yourself over to ridicule and mockery.
It is to put your cross on your back and follow me
with the same abandonment of Self that I followed Jesus
to my own spiritual crucification, which was as real for me in my soul,
as his was in his body.
You must follow me
with the same abandonment of Self
as I followed Jesus,
and all the Holy Martyrs of my People,
for Jesus was not the First nor the Last
to die for The Jew's Belief in The One God of Israel
and the Coming Of The Jew's Messiah
who wasn't and isn't and never will be , Jesus.
It will be me.
You must follow me
at least in your soul and your mind and your heart,
through the corridors of a very real insane asylum.
And walk with me back and forth, back and forth,
denied for weeks on end
the sight of the sun.
It means to be tied onto a bed with straps for hours,
for no good reason whatsoever,
merely because you cut the male nurses to pieces
with your sharp razor tongue.
It is to walk with me barefoot, hungry and cold in the rain,
and see buildings and faces age and decay
in the blink of an eye.
It is too see on the walls of big buildings,
as clearly as a movie on a movie screen,
scenes of tortured Jews in the Holocaust
besides wanton orgies of unrestrained lust.
Both at the same time.
To feel an Unfathomable Self Loathing
because you feel titillated
by the images of naked breasts and sexually enraptured countenances
of women performing outrageous acts of lust,
while Nazis shoot at old men and young children
all at the same time.
And even the dead naked bodies of your people's women
cause your cock to jerk in response.
Do you want this, Pony?
The only way your belief in me as Messiah
can endure the coming tribulations
is if you so empathize with all of my crazy ups and downs,
that you can completely identify with me,
in a total abandonment of self.
It means to die and be reborn
in The Certainty of The Truth of Another Person's  Belief.
For you cannot walk the path I have walked,
not in theory or reality or imagination.
To Believe in me with Perfected Certainty
is to know without a shadow of a doubt
that if you were me and had walked the same path,
through poverty and insanity and ridicule and abandonment
by every one in this world who you hold dear,
you would also believe with the certainty I have
that You are The Messiah Yourself.
But that is not possible.
For I alone am the Vessel Designed and Divinely Meant
to Serve that Holy Purpose.


To feel an Unfathomable Self Loathing
because you feel titillated
by the images of naked breasts and sexually enraptured countenances
of women performing outrageous acts of lust,
while Nazis shoot at old men and young children
all at the same time.
And even the dead naked bodies of your people's women
cause your cock to jerk in response.

Now let me elaborate on the above.
My sexual reactions to these scenes
of the dead naked women
and the murder of my people
which were accompanied by pornographic visions,
stem from my very deep desire
to guarantee the survival of my people
and create a new generation
that survives beyond
the decaying corpses of the old.
I am The Messiah of The Jews.
The Divine Intent to Procreate
goes beyond the desire in my personal genes
to create and maintain a family of my own.
As the King of Israel
my Desire to Expand my People's Quantity and Quality
is embedded in my genes,
like the Queen of the Bees or The Ants.
When God shared this mystery with me,
my self loathing ceased and I understood
why I have always cried uncontrollably
when deeply contemplating the Holocaust.
Once, the first time I was in Switzerland
to visit my new Swiss lover
we slept together the night of my arrival.
When I finally fell asleep,
I had horrific dreams of barking dogs
and the sound of harsh German voices
shouting things I couldn't understand.
I saw a family of Jews
I don't know how many were there,
children and elderly grandparents, a wife,
and a sickly Aunt.
They were huddling together in a hut in the forest
during an attempt to flee the Gas chambers,
the certain fate of the invalid and the elderly,
and those too young for slave labor.
There was an infant, a new born child
who cried and cried and cried.
It crossed the father's mind to smother the baby
and save the remnant of his family,
his wife and other children.
But he couldn't do it, simply had not the courage
or hardness of heart, whatever it took,
to save his horrified family.
The Germans came ever closer
with their barking dogs
and their shrill harsh shouts
and flat toned so sharp voices,
until they approached the shed
and heard the baby crying.
The door opened and they looked inside
to make sure that those inside were Jews,
and then they closed the door and nailed it shut.
They poured kerosene on the wooden shack
and ignited it with a wooden match,
that caught flame on its first friction with the box.
They stood around with their weapons
and watched the windows
as the shack was engulfed in flames
and screams could be heard from within the shack.
" Poppa save me, Momma help me!"
all to no avail.
In my dream I was the father
who couldn't save his family
and watched them burn with him
until they all died.
I woke up screaming
and cried for hours and hours
and couldn't be consoled,
though Kathrin for the life of her
hugged me and held me
and begged me to share with her my dream.
"Tell me what happened to you!" she cried herself
and we both wept in each others arms.
Hours later Kathrin made me coffee
and brought me oranges and cake.
She put on the music of Leonard Cohen,
whom she knew I loved.
I told her my dream
and then explained it all away
by saying I am just a Crazy Jew.
Do you want to be a Jew, too, Pony?
So I can be your Messiah?

And then Pony Writes:

 Full Circle...

please know that i am in No Way offended by Your Tough Love and apparent
Harshness towards Me and My attempt to connect with You prior to One's
Great Reveal of which i have no doubt is Upon Us All. My Compassionate and
Empathetic reaction with Your Own Personal Struggles and Pain are in Fact, the
very reason i have come to this place of Belief, which has extended far beyond
this One on One relationship with You to a deep connection and understanding
with that of the Jewish People. I am humbled by Your writings and they have
always been the key to My Belief in what You Say to be True for Yourself and
for The Rest of Us. although this could never be a competition of personalities,
Based on Your Life Path, Shear "Commitment" and Over All Depth of Knowledge,
i literally cannot Imagine An-Other human better suited for the job of Messiah!

The Interview is Complete, and Based on Your Response a Resounding Success...

"It" was Never about the questions from the beginning of this Sacred Interview,
"It" was All Ways about the Answer! Wink Love heart 11 square 11 square Silenced


And The Messiah Replies:

 Great, Pony!
Now sell all your belongings
and send me the proceeds!
Then abandon your family
and go out and beg for money
until you can buy a ticket to Isreal.
Then come here and beg for me Like Itay Did,
No matter what the weather,
and buy me hashish and whores
and Ecstasy and Amphetamines,
and pay for meals
in the most expensive restaurants,
while you do my soiled laundry
and wash my dirty floor
and clean my filthy toilets
and take the garbage out.
After all,
I am only a Dirty Jew
and you are just a lowly gentile
without even a capital G.
You see?
Serving me isn't hard at all!

 "In the midst of our ordinary day, there exists the inner knowledge of a conceivable reality of an extraordinary nature. This is imprinted on the Jewish soul, hence the Jewish sense for humor. The Jewish character, tenacious and laced with a supernatural quality inherited through our forefather Isaac – whose name Yitzchak comes from the word tzchok, laughter – sustains us and prepares us for the ultimate turnaround.

Now wouldn't that be funny?"

 First, the interview is over,
when I say it's over.
I'm The Messiah
and your a lowly Gnatile.
Know your place!
Secondly, read this.

Pony, I do appreciate your self expression,
support and emotional resonance.
Please don't think I don't.
What I don't need for myself
is any kind of reverence.
When I perceive reverence
my immediate instinct is for severance.
So I wrote you a satiric response
to your somewhat adoring post,
to see if you would recognize my humor.
Apparently, you didn't.
Jews are known for their sense of humor,
particularly self-deprecating humor.
There is nothing a Jew won't make a joke about
when among Jews.
Israeli satirists are the most politically incorrect,
outrageously irreverent satirists in the world.
At least I think so.
Anyway, here are some funny Jewish jokes
taken from the Wikipedia article on Jewish humor.
If you truly want to be my disciple
you are going to have to develop a Jewish sense of humor!
Here are some examples from the article, to whet your appetite.

Humour about antisemitism

Much Jewish humor takes the form of self-deprecating comments on Jewish culture, acting as a shield against antisemitic stereotypes by exploiting them first:

Rabbi Altmann and his secretary were sitting in a coffeehouse in Berlin in 1935. "Herr Altmann," said his secretary, "I notice you're reading Der Stürmer! I can't understand why. A Nazi libel sheet! Are you some kind of masochist, or, God forbid, a self-hating Jew?"

"On the contrary, Frau Epstein. When I used to read the Jewish papers, all I learned about were pogroms, riots in Palestine, and assimilation in America. But now that I read Der Stürmer, I see so much more: that the Jews control all the banks, that we dominate in the arts, and that we're on the verge of taking over the entire world. You know – it makes me feel a whole lot better!"

Or, on a similar note:

After the assassination of Tsar Alexander II of Russia, a government official in Ukraine menacingly addressed the local rabbi, "I suppose you know in full detail who was behind it."

"Ach," the rabbi replied, "I have no idea, but the government's conclusion will be the same as always: they will blame the Jews and the chimneysweeps."
"Why the chimneysweeps?" asked the befuddled official.
"Why the Jews?" responded the rabbi.

And another example, a direct slice of galgenhumor (gallows humour):

During the days of oppression and poverty of the Russian shtetls, one village had a rumor going around: a Christian girl was found murdered near their village. Fearing a pogrom, they gathered at the synagogue. Suddenly, the rabbi came running up, and cried, "Wonderful news! The murdered girl was Jewish!"

There is also humor originating in the United States, such as this joke:

During World War II, a sergeant stationed at Fort Benning gets a telephone call from a woman.

"We would love it," she said, "if you could bring five of your soldiers over to our house for Thanksgiving dinner."
"Certainly, ma'am," replied the sergeant.
"Oh... just make sure they aren't Jews, of course," said the woman.
"Will do," replied the sergeant. So, that Thanksgiving, while the woman is baking, the doorbell rings. She opens her door and, to her horror, five black soldiers are standing in front of her.
"Oh, my!" she exclaimed. "I'm afraid there's been a terrible mistake!"
"No ma'am," said one of the soldiers. "Sergeant Rosenbloom never makes mistakes!"

This one combines accusations of the lack of patriotism, and avarice:

Post-Soviet Russia. Rabinovich calls the Pamyat headquarters: "Is it true that we Jews sold out Mother Russia?" "Damn right, you filthy kike!" "Oh good. Could you tell me where I might get my share?"

Your first official assignment as my disciple, is to study this article:
and to post me your understandings
is such an important element
in their survival as a nation
and potentially your survival as a person
with a serious disease. 

 "..... but i ain't no disciple."

I see.

So you have rescinded on your adoption of the job of advocate.

Advocate:a. Person who publicly supports or recommends a particular cause or policy:
Disciple: a. One who embraces and assists in spreading the teachings of another.

They are pretty much the same,
with the difference being,
one smells religious
and the other smells legal.
But they are basically the same.

It didn't take much to shake you up and scare you away.

Which is why I am here for The Jews.

I will continue to pray for you.

A Catastrophic Tragedy. Maybe Not!


Jonathan Michael Robbins

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